A Calm Sunday, Finding Independence

The first official week of Summer Discovery is practically over. With all the events that happened this week, it was time for a good ol' Sunday rest. I'm having thoughts over home and I'm missing it, but that's the experience I have to expect - and that I did expect - when flying over to the East Coast. I thought I wouldn't miss home because I was getting bored of it, but surprisingly, I miss it. Living alone is much more work than I anticipated, I knew that I had to do laundry and be independent but it didn't hit me until I actually had to independently do tasks. 

To start off, laundry is so mundane and also... I didn't know how to do laundry. To be honest, I'm a spoiled teenage boy who never had the opportunity nor the intention to do laundry; my mom would do my laundry without me having to ask her. As such, I casually treated her daily efforts without thinking about it. I never thanked her for all the hours that she has put into making sure that I lived a fortuitous life. She was always by my side when I needed to go somewhere and she always made sure that I was healthy. And fortunately, today was laundry day. I had an epiphany; I was alone. Never have the seemingly easy tasks appeared so difficult. I had no idea what option to set my clothes on, no idea where to go for laundry, and no idea what to do after I finished laundry. It was hectic because EVERYONE was trying to use the driers and washers, I had to quickly reserve spots minutes before the machines were done being used. Through my struggles and efforts, I finally finished my laundry. It was an epic, through my maneuvers around the dirty laundry and the random socks on the floor, I made it out. I WAS ALIVE!!! The concept of  "freedom over self has never hit me so hard. This is what college is going to be like, I'm going to have to be independent about everything! I need to rid myself of my habits, I will never truly be independent without cleansing my habits. Also, Summer Discovery even supports this notion. The class has no grades, it is all up to the students to decide what to do with the class. This splits the class into the people who want to learn and the people who don't. 

Today was a day of self-discovery. I learned what it meant to be alone. I am missing home, but the experience is worth it. It's not about home anymore, it's about becoming mature and rising as an adult.